Having been one of the ‘lucky’ ones who has managed to completely untangle self from the destructive force of Malignant Narcissists, and its derivatives, I feel it is my duty to reach out and extend my hand to others who may require it.
I am now in the process of ‘clearing my name’ and forming a new life – as said in post; a computer re start. There are many things that I need to come to terms with, many people that I need to make amends with and many things that I need to do to fulfil my potential. Of course, to know one’s limitations is half way to knowing oneself. To understand humanity in all of its facets and still have a balanced and healthy view of life means understanding anger, grief, hate, disgust, war and every other “negative” – to not deny but to see that each one is a part of us and our humanity and can be the motivation we need to create good.
Life and recovery from the debase isn’t about re inventing the self into some sort of higher being where only “positive” qualities are shown. We are a curious mix of being murky, murky creatures with a light so bright that the murkiness doesn’t make us blind. Accept the two halves and others will come.
This is not a blog for the populists view that we must all seek out the ‘good’ in others. This is not a blog for the flaky among us that believe sitting on the fence when witnessing abuse is the “best” way to conduct oneself. And if you believe that everyone in higher authority must be respected, despite what they do, then may I suggest you go elsewhere.
These ideas, among others, were no doubt made by Malignant Narcissists (and its derivatives) while they were in positions of authority (Government, parents, doctors, psychologists etc.) and made as societal ‘truths’ as a form of self regulating abuse in order to keep you – the victim – controlled, brainwashed, non threatening, easy fodder, weak and primed for passing ‘truths’ down to next generations, watching it grow in strength with each generation until humanity is all but automated towards utility for MN’s with not one person in sight to stand up to it.
If you have this niggling feeling of “Am I really crazy? Is it really me?” Am going to go with my hunch that no, you aren’t and no, it isn’t. I will let you connect the dots in your own time. If you are searching for something and don’t know what it is but know that something just isn’t right – give it time but don’t give up.
Malignant Narcissism, and its derivatives, are the spiritual disease that threatens to destroy families, communities, societies and ultimately – goodness.
In order to combat the inhumane, one must discover and use one’s humane qualities. I am currently in the process of re programming and I hope you will too.
I am taking a stand to defend my humanity and intrinsic right to follow my truth path – whatever that may be.
I welcome you, welcome your ideas and welcome your own experiences.
Your boss, mother, partner, child, father, sister, brother, cousin, uncle, friend, colleague….discern and stand firm